My approach was humble. But by my tone I think she knew & felt that my demeanor was bold yet sincere. Our first conversation was soothing due to the fact that nothing else around me was. She was humble, understanding with all I had told her & made me feel like all she wanted to do was listen.. At that point, I couldn’t shake her from my mind.
I tried my best to not let the time difference of my location interfere & through out my tour, it never did. I was nervous when the operator let go of the phone line & connected me to her.. I never get nervous but for the first 2min & 12sec of actually talking to her, I tipped toed around my words till the awkward tension was released; we talked for 2.5 hours that night.
The weight of my missions & distance from my family became lighter. I was always happy & kept my spirits high but, she made the feeling stronger. I think her laugh was what did it. It always sounded so genuine & just as excited as I was when we talk when I would come back after being gone for a couple of days.
I knew I was in love before I told her. Deep into it when I told her. I didn’t know her but I knew I loved her & she had all rights to know because, despite out distance, she was just as in love as I was.. Maybe even deeper.
I didn’t care for much when I got back home. Everything I did, I did just to pass time till she got here.
I arrived to the airport as serious as ever on the outside but on the inside… Shit. When I first held her.. It was crazy.. All I saw was red but I walked & held her as if everyone had to move away from us & couldn’t interfere. She so beautiful.
The walk to the car was long. Long because I wanted her alone every minute we spent in public draggggeeedddddd soooooo much. I didn’t want to have sex with her. Is that weird? I didn’t want it. I wanted to lay with her & learn more about her but, *laughs* I couldn’t hold back. She so beautiful even through all the nasty shit couples do in bed.
That weekend was the best time I have ever had with any person in my life. Nothing around me was living, nothing around me was moving. It was just her & her red hair that made things flow. Everyone fed off our vibe & our aura. Even if they were having a bad day or if something had went wrong prior to them seeing or attending us, they couldn’t help but smile & take in some of the vibe we were throwing out. I love her so much & in my head when I would watch her interact alone I would repeat it myself as I admired her doing the simplest things.
I have a lot to learn & more growing to do as a man. & I don’t want to do it around anyone else but her or alone. I’m satisfied to the fullest with her. In all aspects. She is my women & I want nothing more but to marry her.”